August 28, 2002

Dear Diary - 

today I didn't have much happen! Yeah! Right! NOT! My life is over! NOT! It's just dented. Blake has a crush on me! I got Jackson 2 ask him why he likes me. Blake never answered him. But Jackson & I were talking later. I was saying that I don't see why he has a crush on me. I said "I don't think that I am the kind of person anybody would have a crush on. I know your not gonna say anything because..." He just looked @ me. He started to say something but he didn't finish. After school I was asking him what he was gonna say earlier. He said, "Don't take this the wrong way but." Uh-oh, I thought, he's gonna say something rude. "I don't think what you said earlier is true. I mean the thing about nobody liking you and all." I said, "What do you mean?" He said, "To tell you the truth, I did have a crush on you at one point & I still consider you one of my good friends b/c your really nice and I umm.." "Um what?" "Well I do think you are kind of pretty." "Seriously?" "Yeah." After that he had to leave but Jackson C. admitting that he had a crush on me, thinks I'm pretty & nice! That's just strange. 
Also, I saw Ethan today and he said hi to me. I guess he's learned his manners. Either that or when he ignored me, he was having a bad day.

I love Ethan W.!

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Poor Blake. He had such a rough time in my world - he came to many birthday parties that were hell for him, and then he as a crush on me and I was a jerk. I don't know what he's up to now, but I know he went through a phase when his life wasn't so great (due to his own choices). Truly, I hope he's doing okay. Now, that conversation with Jackson. I meeeaaannnn. It is a possibility, I suppose, that a conversation like that happened - we really were good friends through most of middle school, although not so much in high school. That being said, I'm always skeptical of my younger self because I've seen how prone I am to straight up lying about stuff. Who knows. Maybe I should give younger me some credit. 
Also - "I guess he's learned his manners." Hahahahahaha. I wonder where I heard that one from!!